Moment of silence

Tik Tak Tik Tak
Time flies,
there is no mercy for having extra time,
Mind must be sharp,
hands must be fast,
mouth must be clever,
appearance must be presentable.

Well, today kinda relax. May be I am controlling myself by not doing smth that I am not happy with it. Here I am-PehHwa.

Haiz, I agree with my friends. I dislike the life that I am having now. It is kinda bored in college life. Why? Because everday homeworks hw hw hw hw... There are endless. Somemore, lecturers keep treating us like primary school students. My secondary school life is far more happy and excited than todays. Moreover, most of the teachers are sooooo emotional. If made them angry abit or they are not in the mood, we would become of their victims for their prey. Aiks...

Now I really miss my family and my secondary school friends. There are endless thoughts for it. During the days, we have lots of activities to organise, lots of laughter, lots of happy stories to share, lots of sadness to comfort. Now??? HUH??
My life has changed 180 degree. Friends, I am sure you all know I am a person who does not like to sit still for all the time. I like to walk around alone, or socialise with different gang of people. That's me. Till now It is still the same but the differences are....

-Friends are different
-The topics we talk mainly focus on studies
-Environment has changed - I dislike busy and polluted city
-Pocket money become lesser as money runs like water
-Most of the friends are kinda fake or selfish
-Their main purpose is to study hard, but after they graduate, I am not sure whether they still remember who is PehHwa.
-To find a true friend in this situation is kinda hard
-Exam-oriented, what could I do more?
-Wanna contribute to the society, but alone, mana kawan saya?
-etc.........

I really miss my daddy and mummy now. Thinking that I am facing some family problems and relationship problem, my heart is very ache, but speechless.

Don't know why nowadays will keep thinking of my holiday plans. My daddy scared I might lost my concentration on studies. But for me, this is the only way to motivate myself to study hard. Besides, my mind keep wondering in Australia. Now, I really really hope that I am in Australia. I wish to leave this sad place immediately to be alone there, to have peace and thoughts on my own.

PehHwa PehHwa,
wake up from fantasy,
the orchestra needs you,
the melodious melody stucks in my mind,
I wish you can sing lullaby to me,
I hope you can appear in front of me and hug me.

Mummy be patient,
pls I don want to have flies in my ear,
I want peace,
enough is enough.

Sitting in this square room,
I feel hot inside and outside,
my neighbours here ignored me,
the only person who cares me,
is PehHwa.