Mentariku

Can't believe I am still alive after 13 days of travelling. Yet, I have few more days left. Kinda bu she de now T_T

Still can't rest after I am back >.<

Many things better leave it untold. Suddenly, I realise that I rarely talk to anyone about myself, my own story. Dunno it's good or bad thing.

Patience is the key. Ren a ren!

Couldn't stop listening to Kenangan Terindah. Try it ^^

Kenangan,

dengan campuran susu dan garam,

adunan yang tak akan lupa selama-lamanya.

Mu masih segak,

Ku masih sihat.

Kehidupan yang berlainan,

cara hidup yang berbeza,

kawan yang tak sama,

pemikiran yang sederhana.

Kau masih hero dalam hatiku.

Makan lagi later. cioz

@Adelaide

Flying without you

Immersed into my own world,

seeing things that I should not see,

listening conversation that I should not listen,

looking at your smile make me wonder,

but you are smiling at her cheerfully and sweetly,

chatting happily and following suit on her preferences.

Heart is sinking, bleeding continually,

teardrops on my table and pillow,

making the world curious on me,

am becoming weirder as the world could say.

Raining impulsively internally,

freezing cold in the air,

enjoying the feelings of silence,

feeling happy to see everyone's happy,

smiling cheerfully make my day brighter,

conquering everything that it may come,

without giving up my own life.

Without one earphone,

there would be an emptiness feelings aroused,

undesirable feelings with chilies sauce on it.

Thx God for giving me every obstacle with lots of great experiences.

I treasured you.

Amithabha.

p/s: Just simply scribbling. This time round really damn cacat as I have no inspiration at all and I have forgotten lots of vocabulary. That's why the order and everything is kinda messy without aiming to one direction.

There is no internal meaning or whatsoever =)

Cheers ~

Love, PehHwa

Hang on, I can.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about

When he might have won had he stuck it out;

Don't give up though the pace seems slow--

You may succeed with another blow,

Success is failure turned inside out--

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems so far;

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--

It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

~Edgar A. Guest~

take a breath

At 6a.m, the sun has already risen,
shining us with glory,
asking us to wake up.

Listening to different wonderful birds chirping,
greeting each other cheerfully,
making new friends everyday.

Wondrous for a moment,
what should I do today?
There are plenty, yet I am still planning.

I am fully awake,
without waiting the call to come,
without letting everyone knows.

Let's begin the day with a bright smile once again,
live to the fullest,
never give up and aim the goal.

SHOOT ~~

With Love,
PehHwa

Nature is the only soulmate I have =)

Today I was way too happy when seeing all my cousins plus some of their cucu-cicit gathered at my house. Once I saw the atmosphere, I felt joyous with a bright smile =)

Some thoughts of mine (random).

Taking shower in a hot tub,
mixing with lots of fragrant liquid,
making it smells nice,
however,
it does not mean that you smell that way too.

Looking good is essential,
an apple a day makes your life healthier,
as health is wealth,
no one will replace you once your are dead,
so why should we poison ourselves?

Love is in the air,
I feel proud to have a great family, relatives and friends,
I have more than that where some of my unfortunate friends don't have,
everyday,
they just can hear people shouting with each other,
or parents fighting with each other.
All these saddening incidents do make me feel sad although it is not happening in my family.

I feel their solemn and grief,
but they try to be strong like a normal human,
although they have gone through more hardship than us,
they never give up their dreams.
This spirit has made me aware that life is not that complicated.
Life is as simple as you could think,
with lots of happiness and laughter around.

Friends go and come,
love is always in the air,
it depends on how you catch it.
Red signifies bravery,
yellow signifies your brain yellow??
nah.. no lah.
yellow is my sure name lar =.=

All in all,
don't take life for granted,
we are not a puppet,
we are human who can control our fate,
but not the fate to control us.
So, let's stick together and hope for peace.

No hurry, no worries,
just have laughter around the air with rosemary planted around,
papa and mama holding hands,
siblings and I playing with the sands,
looking at the beautiful bay view,
saying hi to everyone and the nature.

Nature,
you are the thing that I believe the most,
you are the only listener I could count on,
I will tell you everything,
thanks for accompanying me all the time.
Next time I would bring some chips for the monkey,
some nuts for the birds,
and of course some songs for the trees =)

Guys,
pls love our nature,
don't spoil it with plastic bags,
implement 3R,
and everything starts from yourself.

With love,
pehhwa.

Love our life =)

Cooking is an art,
so do sewing and drawing,
how about singing?
Yea, sure it is.
Isn't it?

Kids love to do art works,
no matter how creative their works are,
it would be very joyous to watch them doing things they like,
with full enthusiasm and passion.

Same as adults,
they have their own ways to draw their life,
with determination,
as there is a saying,
take life as a challenge,
it would be imperfect if we don't have any solemn moment,
to spark oneself up,
to be strong again,
to stand up again,
yet,
it is not the perfect among imperfect.
it is still a miracle =)

I love my life very much,
although it is full of happiness and sadness,
I enjoy it very much,
as this is the process of life,
which portrays my personalities,
which examines how strong am I,
which tests how high my EQ is.

I have learn a lot of precious experiences from everyone, Guru, family and friends,
I should be proud to be in one piece and live peacefully in this great country.
I love who am I,
I hope everyone cherish their life as well,
nothing is impossible,
yet,
let's us conquer the world with full courage and great spirit,
become the wonder of the world.

Not necessary to be the best, be an unique person =)

With love,
pehhwa

Only a Fantasy

Only a Fantasy
WPH

Playing only the white keys is imperfect,
I shall search for the black keys as well,
so that it sounds exactly the way we are,
black and white would never leave each other,
they tolerate and respect each other,
that's why the tune and melody sound perfect.

I can still hear the lullaby you sang to me,
it was so soft with love,
my heart has sank into yours,
I took the initiative to leave you,
not to hurt anyone more,
it would be the best way for now.

I can still smell your lovely smell,
it was so sweet like honey,
my heart has sank into yours,
taking initiative to pull myself out,
not to love you too deep,
it would be the best way for now.

La la la la la la,
I heard nothing for now,
Lu lu lu lu lu lu,
I have used to your absence of life,
ha ha ha ha ha ha,
I am happy to be who am I now,
bla bla bla bla bla bla,
I would never believe to gossip that is bad for you.
shh shh shh shh shh shh,
I want silence please.

No matter where we are,
our souls will be always together,
without leaving trackback behind,
without having others to sabotaj us.

"Wake up, today is CNY, we have to go out soon"

Oops,
it is only a dream that comes true in my outer world,
looking at the black screen disappearing from my vision,
I can listen the sound of crackers firing,
children and old folks laughing happily.

Only,
a sweet dream where whipped cream had been added,
so lovely,
I weeped and everything has been untold and forgotten,
PUFF,
everything has gone,
I am once more back to reality of me,
enjoying the days to the fullest.

Amithabha

Thanks Dear.

With love,
PehHwa

Untukmu

Sorry guys for the overwhelming posts. I feel quite excited today but not solely because of the event =)

UNTUKMU
WPH

Bersabarlah,
masa untuk anda akan sampai juga,
tak kira bagaimanapun,
anda adalah perwiraku yang berjuang demi kebaikan.
Tanpa sokanganmu, saya tidak akan berada di atas pentas yang bersinar.

Detik-detik manis akanku ingatkan,
selama-lamanya hingga ke tanah merah.
Kaulah manusia yang diperlukan oleh negara kita,
semangat berjuangmu yang berkobar-kobar,
amat disanjungi oleh saya.

Tidak kira apa subjek yang kamu pilih,
saya akan sentiasa di sisimu,
memberi sokongan moral kepada anda.

Walaupun dunia kami berlainan,
kita pernah bergaduh,
kita pernah bergurau,
kita pernah sot sot,
kita pernah bermesra,
tak kira apa yang berlaku pada masa hadapan,
saya akan sentiasa berdoa untukmu,
tanpa mengharapkan apa-apa.
Asalkan semua orang berasa gembira,
saya dah amat berpuas hati.

Perwiraku,
yang pernah menembak hatiku,
sehingga bulletnya menembusi hatiku berkali-kali,
walaupun ia berdarah,
tetapi demi negara yang tercinta,
saya rela berkorban,
demi kebahagiaan negara ini.

Jadilah manusia yang berguna,
janganlah sia-sia tenaga dan masamu,
bayang saya akan sentiasa berada di sisimu,
bersama-sama mengharungi kedukaan dan kesukaan hidup.

Hatiku bercelaru,
tapi mindaku bertenang macam air perigi,
saya tetap bertekad dengan pilihanku,
tanpa mengerti kesusahan,
harap semua ia berbaloi dengan senyumanmu yang manis.
Saya tak mau apa-apa,
saya hanya mahu melihatmu gembira.

Terima kasih kepadamu yang sentiasa memberi inspirasi kapadaku apabila saya terkenang tentangmu.
Walau bagaimanapun,
kita sudah tahu berfikir dan matang,
kita telah membuat keputusan yang terbaik setakat kini.
Tuhan akan sentiasa menjaga nama baikmu.

Thanks dear.

With love,
PehHwa

Hmmm..... Well, once I write a Malay poem, suddenly I am thinking of EZat Almy, my dear friend a.ka. groupmate of Induction Weekend of RIKL. Hope to see you before the sun is going down and be strong in the army camp.

All the best to everyone.

Nite nite =)

Silence is golden

Hei Shen La Hei Shen La
Handphone alarm was ringing
I was awake from a blur night
Head was lighted due to some alcohol in my blood
Hope that I could sleep longer but I can't put off my plan

Walking alone at the strange street
Talking to a bunch of strangers who wanted to cheat my money
Brain must be alert always and malay must be fasih

Took 3 hours drive to the north
along the way,
my butt was darn pain due to the bad road condition and long journey
but I never give up and still went on

Reached the town and saw a lot of strange faces,
taxi driver wanted to cari untung by potong leher saya
luckily I tried to reduce to minima
but still it was not worth at all cos I myself have to sewa the whole car.

the journey of wondering in the jungle was great
but I can't share with anyone beside myself
I saw many wooden houses beside the street and on the hill
waving with the kids make my day bright
talking to them make me smile more
I love them alot
though I am not good at conveying myself,
I love to communicate with them,
to know more about them.

Today the weather was not really good,
I was wet with no umbrella with me,
I love this kind of feelings,
I have fallen in love with the rain,
the wind was darn strong and the thunder was darn loud,
if I stepped wrongly,
I could end up in the rough sea.

back to Kk wondering around again.
I have walked to 4 shopping malls in a short period of time,
my main purpose was not to shop but to see the interior though their locations were darn far apart,
I enjoyed walking though my knee caps were still weak and pain,
I enjoyed looking at people' expression especially they were from different background and races,
murut, kadazandusun, malay, chinese, rungus & dusun
it was an awesome experience.

Though I was alone,
I never give up myself,
I must go on and achieve my dream,
I am glad to have such an opportunity to reap my profit,
my parents always encourage me,
my dear friends always at my side.

Though I am still weak in expressing,
I never give up myself,
I must do what should I do,
I am glad to be here.

Last but not least,
I am glad to know you,
it is you who made me realise my passion and dreams,
it is you who give me a ring in my mind,
it is you who had thought me the life,
it is you who give me inspire to success in life,
it is you who give me courage indirectly to conquer the mountain,
it is you who made me so daring,
however,
my heart is still weak,
I feel unsecure when wondering the street alone,
I feel lonely eating, walking, sleeping, thinking and playing.

God gave us the strength to success,
We shall fully utilize it but not exploit it,
things are not always what you want and what you have,
be grateful and take life as a challenge,
always trust yourself with no second thoughts,
everyone can succeed.

kumbayah

copyrighted WPH

第一次

很多從第一次開始，
卻變習慣結束。

什麽時候開始許諾？
什麽時候學會食言？
什麽時候開始學習？
什麽時候學會偷懶？
什麽時候開始哭泣？
什麽時候學會堅強？

第一次的許諾逼自己完成。
而人卻非神，總有一二事做不到。
如此就第一次學會食言。
凡是有一必有二，漸漸食言也成習慣。
如今卻學著不再許下諾言。
是開始不信任？還是學會了逃避？

第一次的學習是自己堅持完成。
然人總是人，總是找些藉口讓自己沒那麽辛苦。
找到藉口就開始偷懶。
一次、兩次、三次，偷懶也成了習慣。
如今嘗試著無論何事都不給理由。
理由就是藉口？還是理由會變成藉口？

第一次哭泣總是在懦弱的小時候。
可人總要臉，什麽男兒有淚不輕彈。
於是學會面人歡笑背人愁。
次復一次，懦弱的小孩也會變堅強的男人。
遇到再大的挫折也不表現弱勢。
不哭是抛棄了某种情緒？還是丟掉悲傷與無助？

凡事都會有第一次。
此時會安慰自己說僅僅這一次。
接著也會跟來第二次、第三次。
或許還會安慰自己説是久久一次。
緊隨而來的會是第四次、第五次。
可能會想說反正已經不是第一次了。
當然，接下來還會有第七次、第八次……
也許此時已經變成了習慣。

緊守第一次。
掌握第一次。
遺忘第一次。

"Quoted from one of my friends from Perak"

Personally, I love this writings very much.

Promises are always promises, but ppl always neglect it when they become lazy or having and giving other excuses to ignore it.

People always like to say how great they are, how good they are, but in the end, there are nothing but just avoiding themselves.

Sad to see and sad to know. Isn't it?

Dizzy thoughts

I HATE liar
I HATE ego ppl
I HATE ppl who like to boosting
I HATE ppl who are too humble
I HATE ppl who love to show off
I HATE ppl who like to waste money n time
I HATE ppl who smoke
I HATE ppl who bully other ppl
I HATE ppl who say rude words to ppl
I HATE ppl who are not loyal
I HATE ppl who like to give EMPTY promises
I HATE ppl who are selfish
I HATE ppl who are stingy
I HATE ppl who are not friendly
I HATE ppl who are very grumpy
I HATE ppl who are very bossy
I HATE ppl who like to give much instructions
I HATE ppl who talk bad about others
I HATE ppl who abandon their children or pets
I HATE ppl who do things without consult others
I HATE ppl who like to fight back constantly
I HATE ppl who like to cut queue
I HATE ppl who are not generous at all
I HATE ppl who are pretending to know everything
I HATE ppl who dislike or look down themselves
I HATE ppl who look down on others
I HATE ppl who keep condemning about the critical situation but do nothing
I HATE ppl who are not helpful at all
I HATE ppl who are FAKE
I HATE ppl who love to spend money on unnecessary stuffs
I HATE ppl who hate themselves
I HATE ppl who like to goda ppl
I HATE human CHICKENS

etc

etc

etc

etc

etc

....................................................................................

Hate doesn't mean dislike
Dislike doesn't mean annoying
Annoying doesn't mean stupid
Stupid doesn't mean idiot
Idiot doesn't mean bullshit
Bullshit doesn't mean fuck
Fuck doesn't mean shit
Shit doesn't mean shoot
Shoot doesn't mean just do it
Just do it doesn't mean fake

Life goes on,
if you face any difficulty,
it doesn't mean the end,
there would always a way to go out,
a warm place to stay in,
a warm hug from you,
a bright smile from your friends,
a caring greeting from your family members.

Love is in the air.
I hope everyone can feel the love.
If you are a loner,
try to mix around.
If you are single,
don't worry, your path is still long way to go.
If you are not single,
enjoy the moment and appreciate what you have.
If you are sad,
cheers, you have to choose either tears or smile,
which one would let you feel better.
If you are happy,
don't forget to share the happiness with others.

Amithabha.

Dedicated just for you =)

After offline, I quai quai sat at my seat and started to study.
Not for awhile, my honey pie ======
my msg ring tone rang.
I took and wonder who send msg to me.
Rupa-rupanya it was my dear friend.
The msg was so damn touching till I almost cried out =.=
Thanks to my dear friend, I am so proud to be your great friend.
I hope that you are ok and always be happy.
Hope to see you soon.
Focus, be happy, be strong and everything will be fine =)
Take care.

Love,
PehHwa

Enclosed here would like to dedicate a poem or don't know jadi poem anot to you.

*Moment of Silence* (Thinking)

Day by day,
our 9 year bonds of friendship still remain strong,
although there is ups and down,
we have never encounter argument before,
although you never really be my listener,
I still cherish you as my dear friend,
because you are the only one,
who see through me,
although not really know what is happening,
you still care for me.

Sitting on the couch,
bitting an apple greedily,
looking at the photos we have,
tears roll down my cheeks.

Without knowing,
time passes very fast,
it has almost come to an end for us to say Goodbye,
I hope to hug you now,
as I know you need a shoulder to lean on.

Although I am a girl,
I still can take care of you,
there is no gender discrimination,
everyone is my friend,
I don't mind to sacrifice my time and energy,
to help people who are in need.

When there is a will,
there is a way,
although climbing up the hill is difficult,
but,
mentally we are strong,
we would never give up,
you become the parang man,
I become the Schweppes,
together we go through the jungle,
cross the long river.

A rainbow has come to rescue,
by just seeing it,
it has enlighten me,
I know one day,
we shall meet again,
you and I would come back to this point,
I have lots of stories to share with you,
you with your gf would come to meet together,
each of us happily walk to the nature once more,
taking each hand,
say HELLO to the adult world.

I know,
deeply inside me,
we would surmount everything that block us,
would not be susceptible to the outer influence.

You and me,
bridging the fingernails,
together,
walk to the bright path,
together,
explore the north world,
together,
and friends for life =)

Ok, I am done. Seriously, this is NOT a poem as I am stuck at the very beginning with my tired brain.

Anyhow, thanks for reading.

=)