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When you have come to a point, you feel like you desperately need a break. But life goes on, if you stop right now, you would never finish what you have started. Sometimes, I do feel helpless. Although there are great resources available, the ultimate product must be created by you; for you to find the right resources; for you to manipulate the resources and take the path that people rarely take it but you have to walk out of it with a meaningful reasons and contributions.

Sometimes it is really frustrating, because you have no one to rely on except yourself. Even though you may try to convey your ideas/your requests to someone from the top, others may not willing or may not understand what you want to achieve unless you yourself proof it to them that this is a convincing case that is worth thinking about.

Life goes on. So does the time is ticking every second, every minute, every hour, every day. Few more months to go and I would graduate. Merely thinking of that, one could not resist from hiding the weak smile. Although it is tough, but still you must go on! it brings you to a better future, a better you. Somehow, you would keep learning from the mistakes, trying to voice out your opinion, making sure your points are worth to go. This is it. this is what life should be. this is just a learning process. Enjoy it and strive to the best.

I can't wait to go home :D tanah tumpah darahku! 

what are you thinking about

 

Sometimes we tend to get emotional/hyper because of the surroundings that evolve around you. Sometimes we tend to hear some stories that we hope that it is not true. Sometimes we wish to be someone that you feel not comfortable with just to fit into the world. Sometimes we tend to fake a smile like everything is fine. Sometimes we hope for the greatest, but we may not aware that we have missed out the other opportunities that are coming to us. Sometimes… sometimes…

When we think of something, would we over-think or under-think about it (i.e. thinking too much of an issue that is actually not important. or taking things for granted on things that are actually important). So to what extent do you think you are controlling your own mind, or your mind is actually controlling you? This does not necessarily mean whether you are a follower or a leader. Take a deep breath and have a look in yourself.

Life is full of surprises. full of crimes. full of joy. full of challenges. full of lies. full of dust. full of masks. but there is always a way to have a brighter, happier life. u know, I know, we all know well on them. it’s just the matter on how you execute it. how you perceive life. how you love yourself.

Just wanna say, no matter how smooth sailing or how hardship your life could be, hang in there. Happiness, sadness, pain, joy everything is not lasting long. Cherish and accept everything that comes to your doorstep.

*knock knock* is there anyone home? Would you take it as a challenge or be a loser and quit?

The answer to yourself is _____

Just wanna share some general deep thoughts I have in my mind right now. do explore your own mind, you could actually find something interesting in yourself. on others. or on people that you may not fond of. or people that you are admire.

p/s: thanks shanshan for sharing her thoughts. I learnt something from her though it was just a short conversation.

lolz

Can’t really describe my feelings right now. Excitement fills with busy-ness. I hope I could finish up everything by today, hopefully go go go ! shall tell myself to stop facing the comp! get things started!

after that, it’s still an empty jar

I am exhausted. This is what I could describe now. However, it couldn’t describe the sorrow I keep deep down in my heart. Somehow, people come and go. We couldn’t control it either. Anyone could be your good friend at one moment and be a stranger at other time. Time could change anything regardless you are at everywhere, as long as you are still alive. even though when you are enjoying your afterlife, things could still change.  your fate. your mind. your soul. your everything.

Most of my friends are going to graduate and leave the comfort Uni life. They would venture in working life in no time. Everyone has started to search their dream job or even prepare everything they could just to secure a job. Even a few of my friends who have 1 semester to go have their goals in their mind. I wanna do this or I gonna do that after graduating, etc. I always stoned whenever listening to ppl talking about their after uni’s plans, because I dunno what I want. Kinda lost but yeah, lost loh. don’t know how to describe further. Don’t know what I really want or should I say don’t know what I really capable in.

shall put those matters aside. Enjoy my friends’ graduation tomorrow. will miss them deeply in my heart. hope to see them again in near future. and not to forget, memories will always keep in my mind. friends are always friends, it’s the matter of oneself on how to keep the friendship alive. Technology so canggih, it depends on u mao or tak mao, right???

okay la, sleep time!

Habits

It has become a habit of mine to write a post during late night before sleeping. Somehow, I enjoy the quietness and tranquility at this hours. It should be peaceful with a relax mind, however, not quite so at this moment >.<

Today’s group discussion held for 6 hours which I think it was a successful studying session for me though I haven’t really started preparing for my exams. It’s time to get low and study like a nerd I reckon. Hopefully my mind could work in line with my hands plus coordinate with my mouth and legs so that I wouldn’t eat nonsense non-stop or sitting in front of the desk for all day long. I need some exercise & entertainment too.

This year’s winter break most probably I will be going to Melbourne for a few days before proceed to Tasmania. Hopefully everything will work out fine *crossed fingers*. From $$ perspective, it’s a bit lose tight. Anyhow, I should enjoy to the max since this might be the last year of staying in Australia T____T Can I have another option? Or just married a rich guy in Oz? Gosh, the more I talk about it, the more geli I feel. It’s unnecessary to reply stalker’s msg right? LOL

There are a few activities that I haven’t done though I have paid for them. grrrr, as such, watching movie in a classic theatre, driving a jet flight stimulator, rock climbing at Kangaroo point, sky diving in Brisbane, etc.

I have a slight tingle of happiness when people praise me of my efficiency in organizing events. I must be grateful to have my secondary childhood experiences that I have gained pretty much in those kinds. Without it, I am nothing. Not to forget, the ups and downs I have along the pathway of growth and the impromptu bravery I have which is much depends on my intuition and mood. LOL

The blogger is missing Taiwan again. Not really about the attractions/food there, it’s about friends! Aiesec friends to be exact. I miss you all!!!

Ok, finish rambling liao. sleep nao!

night peeps!

feelings

When one feels that time is running out, one still slacking as one does not know where to start with. The blogger feels “empty” at the moment. The biggest fear is finals, somehow, I can’t really focus in studying now as there are few more things to go before I can fully focus on it. Currently having mixed feelings because well, too much to think about. Too much to care about. Dealing with feelings is the most difficult part in life not only about love relationship, feelings between friends and family members require knowledge too.

perhaps … I should start working on things that I should do now. stop slacking. pls give me motivation! I need it badly

I miss the happy smile

My style

Well, this would be a personal post. You are ought not to read, decision is in your hands :)

When people say you are great, you are fast, you are efficient, you are organized. What would be your first reaction? Proud? Happy? Dunno how to react?


I have experienced ups and downs like everyone does. The main influential matter in shaping a better me perhaps is the environment where I grown up. When hardship comes, I would try my best to diminish it. When success comes, I am satisfied and wanna do something different next time. When good things arrive, I like to share with people whom I love. When sadness comes, I would hide to myself, minimizing the burdens on others. When I am broke, I will try to earn some pennies without asking from FAMA if possible.

There are always pros and cons in every matter. I kept typing and deleting things that I am typing now, it's hard to describe it here. well for example, a solid metal is hard to bend, but it could absorb and release heat very quickly. On the other hand, if it hits a person's head, the person might die. If the kettle is too hot, no one would dare to hold it with their bare hands, isn't it? Same goes to, if you are beautiful or cute, more guys would incline to talk to you compared to those nerdy or odd girls. Undeniably, the topics would be different in catering each individual. Everyone has different maturity level and likes, it depends on which force that get to be connected or disconnected. 

Aha, the more I type, the more abstract it goes. No need to understand, it's just my style of expressing :)

I am just an ordinary girl who likes to be pampered too. dislikes to be too independent and rather to be the quiet one! LOL

Things are getting better and lighter

Whoash, I have a new layout now which only consumed less than 30 minutes to install the XML document plus add some of the ads widgets, delete some unnecessary widgets, bla bla bla. Instantly, I am curious about editing HTML and definitely would like to learn more about it. Perhaps add some animated icons would be fantastic. I LIKE! This layout theme is about “love time”. Well, I don’t know exactly why I choose this theme but I like it very much though some of the parts are not really up to my expectation. Hopefully will get it done during my holiday. By doing so, I would feel more comfortable blogging things that I have been waiting for long. Seriously, can’t wait to get it done!

Today I have finished my so called MID SEM but still have one more assessment to go on Thursday. Right after my exam, I went to a venue where I used to have tutorial every Tuesday. A few students and I sitting waiting for the tutor to arrive. After 10 minutes, the tutor wasn’t arrived yet. I sort of rambling to myself why this tutor always arrive late. Well, he is a Malaysian undeniably but a handsome one. so –1 +1 makes it neutral. I shall not blame him then. One of the classmates suddenly stood up and told us today no tutorial. We were like, huh, are you serious that kind of look? because we felt utterly embarrassed at that moment. Walking up the steep stairs was not an easy task plus waiting for no one to arrive made it more ridiculous. One ang moh told us not to tell anyone about our presence. She must felt silly. For me, I felt like digging a hole somewhere else to hide my head. If there was no tutorial, I would better off buying a boast juice or enjoyed having lunch with my friend. That opportunity cost just occurred to me. Anyhow, I did buy a banana buzz from boast juice and it caused me having severe stomachache afterwards. I don’t blame it, because I like banana, but not the vanilla ice-cream please.

One of my friends who studies in ANU, Canberra came to visit me today. We had our dinner @ Nudo, a Malaysian cuisine restaurant where the portion of one dish was big enough for him to eat because he could eat quite a lot. How thoughtful was I. After that, we went to HuiSuo to practice sign language. Thanks God I could manage to catch up the new lesson which was taught last week. It intrigued me to learn the lyrics and sing it out by memories if possible. I can’t wait to see our own performance, it would be awesome I believe.

Gosh, every time I hope I could type more but I am exhausted. Brain drained or too many cells died from exhaustion. aha, shall stop here then. xoxo

Promise to blog better stuffs next time. night peeps!

*I am hyper now not because I am stress-free, perhaps the friends around me and things that I am doing make me happy?*

Catching up now

Rambling #9 [final]

Aloha, time flies. I am feeling kinda dizzy now due to sleep deprivation these few days. Hopefully tomorrow I could sleep more as tomorrow would be the last stressful day and gonna say bye bye to mid sem, my second last mid sem to be exact.

I have been browsing through quite a few blogs that truly inspire me such as quaintly.com, sweatlee.com and friends’ blog. Undeniably, they could write very well especially in expressing emotions, describing the atmosphere and bla bla bla. I would want to be like them, hopefully. Although I blog quite often, but sometimes, I couldn’t express well in words. It frustrates me because I don’t have the right feelings and right vocabulary to use when I need them. Somehow, I could express really well when I am not thinking but just typing nonstop. This would be the moment when I am very myself because I couldn’t care to type what I think. Guess that restrictions doesn’t apply to me but I got to apply it in my blog. How ironic is that.

 

I am in need of vitamin m badly because the m leaves keep dropping but non of them stay or growing. I don’t want to use FAMA, I want to work, can I? I would like to earn some money pockets to fund my parents when they are coming over.

Okay, headache max now. couldn’t think sanely. But there are list of things I really wish to do/finish. Would like to list them down for my own reminders

• clean my room
• buy bb screen protector & cover
• blog the things I want to blog
• process tons of pics
• manage society’s blog
• make a vblog?
• read more recipes & try to cook them
• cycle around the river (if only I have a bike)
• watch drama
• take more decent pics
• talk/skype with my friends
• involve more in tc
• practice sign language (oh no, hopefully I still could catch up)
• join Aiesec and be part of it

there are more. blog next time. sleepppy cioz

Never stop running

Rambling #8

Hurray! two more mid sem papers and one assessment to go. Just can’t wait to get it over as studying everyday is just not myself but I can’t help it. Yet, I am still watching FRINGE drama series everyday   It’s getting to the climate, I couldn’t stop watching it.

 

Other than that, I have partial sleepless night. Why partial? Physically I am lying on the bed during sleeping hours however it seem that my brain is still projecting series, stories to make me more revive than being tired mentally. This is not good. Don’t like that!

 

Alright, really can’t wait now. I am looking forward to the one week break holiday and after that, finals again. Anyhow, that’s life. Shall cherish my last year of being an undergraduate student. Forget the worries, bring the joy to others

 

Driving down to my Memory Lane

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I could multitask pretty well especially when I am studying, my mind would busy flashing back the memories I have regardless there are short term/long term. It makes me feel donknowhowtodescribe and teary

 

I miss Taiwan especially the people I met there the most. They are so friendly and humorous. I miss hanging out with them and cracking lame jokes together. Not to forget, the lovely homestay parents who provided me shelter and great food, brought me around the town and taught me about the lifestyle and culture there.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I miss my backpacking mates too. When thinking back the conversations we had, it made me smile. Thanks buddies, you guys are lovely.

 

I miss my parents & siblings too. With their silly jokes, I could never ask for more.

 

I couldn’t think of anything that could make me angry, could make me mad for this past 2 years. What I have learnt from my past mistakes are never grumble/complaint/sad over the spill milk. But if just sharing stories with parents/close friends, that’s okay! Cherish everything everyday with a big bright smile

 

Shall end this random post with a JIA YOU!

 

terima kasih2 byk byk for reading. now I realize there are soooo many pictures waiting to be processed. alamak!

If only fantasy comes true

Rambling #6

4 assessments/exams are coming very soon over 3 consecutive days + 2 more on next week. Memang Siao! Guess skim reading is what I should do now. Forget about getting good marks, just finish reading and understand them jor ok liao. Ok saya sangat merindui keluarga & kawan baik saya. besides, I hope I am lying on the vast fluffy grass looking at the crystal blur sky. Not to forget , bringing along my soft toys, picnic mat, grass hat, sunglasses along. Surely would have splendid fun if everyone I loved tag along, having endless conversation and sharing, laughing and taking some awesome pics. Every imaginary scene is in my mind now, hoping it could come true one day, someday with awesome people around.

 

Haha, rant/type too much of personal thoughts for now. Anyhow, happy day always and really can’t wait to have holiday gateway. Saya mao main Orang ni memang tak boleh duduk diam2 hari2 kat rumah/library.

 

The war shall begin

Rambling #5

My busy mid-term weeks are gonna begin. Kinda worried though as I haven’t finished reading all the materials At the same time, I am very excited on what is going on after these 2 weeks. Shall keep going and stay put!

 

This is your LIFE

Rambling #3

 

It’s soooo true. Life is short, just live your dream & share your passion. Not to forget, travel often.

Other than merely study 24/7, which is impossible, there are lots of stuffs that one can do. For example, to work in a career field than is beyond your degree course. To get involved in charities to make others happy and educated. To move on in life and try things that you never try before. To have more mutual friends and always keeping in touch with them rather than having hi & bye and lost contact friends. To live peacefully with a smile and be positive throughout your life time. Yes, one might argue it’s easier said than done. But I do believe with the will of determination, nothing is impossible. The past is the past, the future is where it would bring you to if only one appreciates it from now onwards. Do not ignore people who do not appreciate you, in contrary, treat them as your good friends because they are the one who mold you into a better person. Never fall you would never know how it feels like. So, be more initiative and don’t worry about losing, worry about how to do better.

Life is actually great

Rambling #2

Hey another quick post here. Have been sneezing quite often this few days, it must be someone saying bad things about me. hmm! I feel pity to the blogger who can’t proceed with her adventurous journey as she is now laying on a hospital bed that means I can’t read her amazing stories d. Alright, I have done with the bookings! Now it’s time to concentrate on my studies though it seem that the progress is slow. After that I could have fun for 1 week and do some charities at the same time. Not to forget, to take some awesome pictures of nature or perhaps abstract!

 

Seriously need to take care of my dry skins due to the weather changes why why why? hahaha. Well, thinking of graduation trip, where should I go? UK, NZ, HK, KOREA, INDOCHINA? too many options but too limited $$.

OKay, gotta cioz to uni. Hope I could fly now! superrrrrrrrrrrrrr-----man, come fly with me! LOL

Rambling #1

I like to have quick post as it somehow makes me feel good especially during stress period. So, here some random rants for today. blek! Lately, it rains quite often and the weather temperature is decreasing. I wore socks and long pants yesterday! this made me feel cozy how I wish I am at home where mummy and daddy surely will make me some carrot juice or hot milo. Here I make msia milo myself but it is 3-in-1 packet. So, tak syok cos no perasaan plus it is overly sweet. And and, my interest on cooking is back. I start cooking my own meals after getting some kitchen utensils from my friends. Cooking is fun and is time consuming too especially the time when you are waiting for the items to be cooked. right? anyhow, vegetarian meals are easier to prepare. it’s healthy plus yummy

 

Well, do you have any balance vegetarian diet plan? Starting the beginning of the year, my body feels weakening. I used to have much energy to play tug-&-war. However, when I used my both palms to push my friend’s palm. I lose within a few seconds. How embarrass is that.

alright, gonna walk to uni now. cioz!

Y U NO

 

It has been awhile since I last blogged. I always wanted to complete my Taiwan posts, my holiday posts but ended up posting my random/personal posts. It has been a week since I got back to Australia. Yes, I have a new room and liking the big wardrobe but well alright no more but. Got to adapt the new environment!

It has been a tiring 1st week especially during weekends. Have been attending countless meetings for 2 different events until midnight. It is insane I could say because till now I haven’t finish unpacking yet. My room is still in a mess! Totally no mood to study at all!

alright, got to buck up now. Start doing things! And I hate to say that I truly miss someone idiot that shouldn’t be missed. OKAY! back to work!

follow the flow

Another short late night post! Aha, lazy to blog about my holiday outings, will blog later kay.

Few more days left in Msia, feeling weird yet happy yet sad. Imma confused! I don't think i could manage to tick all the to-do-list boxes. Heng! Just because I am lazy, slap x1000. Let me type this few words that it never appear in my blog before. Yes, I wanna get slimmer and prettier. huh? though my skin is quite sensitive, but I do believe this world is kinda "fair" in certain ways. Bullll to people who solely judge from appearance.

Stop thinking of being perfect because one is actually ruin it by thinking it too much. Just live with what you have and aha, enjoy your life as if tomorrow gonna be the last day. Choi!

still, when i think of the workloads that I have to do this year, feeling kinda scare. but i pretty sure i could conquer it. need more faith~ yes u can, i can too :)

yes, miracle does happen. no need to grip too tight, let it go, let it be, things will fit perfectly in your life. Love yourself, love others. ^^

nite nite

x kacau

This time seriously emo. tapi tak tao apa reasons. not sure though. macam suddenly ada byk perkara nak buat, tapi mcm tak dpt menumpu perhatian dlm perkara tersebut. one word, lazy sial. feel like something is blocking my blood vessel, and when everything stuck there and suddenly burst, boom, macam bom meletup.

beside, there are so many things that i want to do. I am a greedy girl. yayyy! tapi saya tak boleh multitask. saya ni tak ada talents, hodoh plus stupiak. okay, now i am damn cacat. don qi cake me now. nanti sakit jantung cham.

 

dah miss jagung bakar kat taiwan. ok. random punya!

 

more photographing

more talking

more confidence needed

more sleep time

more flexible

more EQ

more brave

more healthy

more firm

more money

more music

less fat

less oil

less being pessimistic

less emo

less salt

less spending

ok, these are my to-do-list

argh, i could sum up as 力不从心！

 

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what's now

okay, tell me a reason why I am blogging now. Guess that it's boredom having on my way. Kinda sucks when realizing I am actually wasting my own time doing nothing. hope that I could find something useful to do to kill my time in Malaysia. Part of me actually yearning to go back to Australia, but part of me wanting to stay in Msia to have some fun I guess. But I am not happy with sitting on my bed and facing the comp for all day. quite mao i know.

Recently, I am thinking about how to earn money. It sounds cheapo, but yea, I am dead serious about it. There are so many issues that needed money to solve the problem. But of course not on feelings matter. Sometimes, I just hope that I could have money tree planted in my house. When I need it, what I need to do is just pluck the money from the tree. How easy is that? Seriously I need a laptop to survive in Oz but I don't feel good to use my parents' money to buy one as they have already bought one for me but it was not functioning now :( I need a better camera with video functionality but I am damn broke with that. So, that's the end of the story for the time being. I would still stuck with the old one. Being able to send someone to study overseas is not that easy at all. We are as in my family is not that rich, but obviously we want our loves ones to expose something different in their life. Money is not everything, no?

okay, should try to spend some time cleaning up my house and packing my luggages. There are actually many things needed to be done before I leave. move your butt off the bed! k, just a rambling thoughts. bai.