First of all, I would to clarify that my emo does not mean that I am sad or whatsoever. It just struck me suddenly at this moment. Perhaps I am way too tired and haven't eaten my dinner properly and has been stayed alone here for the whole week is way too torturing for me in term of mentally and physically. Worst come to worst, it's way too hard to find ppl to talk with.
Well, today have been forcing myself to study. Nevertheless, I am not sure whether I can absorb everything I read. These few days I have been sleeping late 3 smth. I am sort of have forgotten the timing to sleep, to eat, to think properly. Perhaps, staying here has made me retarded rather than energetic. I thought If I face this darn wall would let me focus well but the result is in contrary. Oh gosh.
Ppl emo because missing someone or under stress. But me? I am emo for no reason. Perhaps always being alone is not a good thing, I can't express properly and have been a ya ba ppl for these few days besides than just singing to myself =.=
Today it is more torturing for me to focus on my studies. My whole basket waste is full of tissue. I have a bad flu and keep on sneezing. Besides, the darn hot weather made my room stuffy and I feel damn drowsy.
Even now I type things also slow and my mind is not functioning well. I want my exam to over as soon as possible. I don't want to eat bread anymore. I want back my normal life. Now it's just not me. I can't sit still for even half and hour on the study table. sob...
Just now have been watching DSX's blog of those videos made by Utar students. I love it very much until digging every video from the youtube. Some of them are so meaningful which could touch my heart and make me weep. The stalker video is way too scary until I don't dare to proceed :?
After watching, I am stunned for awhile and don't know what to do next. I very agree with the survey result which I have done from gor's blog.
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.
Yea, I am lack of charm and soulmates. The problem is I am lousy in expressing myself. I prefer to express myself through pictures, videos or anything to do with animation rather than words and language =.=
OK lah, I think I have to sleep rather than keep on emo for no reason. Hope the time passes fast and my dream could achieve =) Stay positive.
Tata
1 comment:
no wonder u always kacau me on innit wtf =P
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