Life goes on, doesn't it? Dunno why, my mind kept on thinking all the sweet and bitter memories I have gone through. Well, just let me recall back what were there. I kept smiling to myself as I was way too stupid and childish when I was young. Oh no, does it mean I am old now?
Everyone when comes to a certain stage, their thinking would be more critical and mature to a certain extent. However, some might fall into a dark path which could be a dangerous choice for them and for their future.
Erm, I shall stop crapping. Don't la. When I have the feel to rant or crap, do let me. I could crap till never end till you really can't bear with it. Ok, are you ready to hear my stupid stories?
________________________________________________________________
The music that I was listening was killing me. It made my mind running so active and capturing every moment in detail.
FORM 3
This year was a memorable year for me. I got to know more band members which were same badge with me as we were assigned to organise a farewell gathering for our seniors. From there, our craziness was expand to maxima. We did a lot of crazy stuffs together which I couldn't believe I could be so happy in that family. We went to Yok Bin's school to watch performance. Other than that, we went to A Famosa for our badge vacation. That vacation was awesome as we danced crazily and talked loudly. Moreover, everyone was amazed with my sudden change of my attitude as I used to be the quietest person among them. Hey, you judged me wrongly if you think that I am a quiet person. Well, If you get to know me very well, you will know me I am not not not. We even danced in the rain. That was awesome. Furthermore, we went to ASK camp together and kept on criticizing people silently. Shit, I still remember that I kept on talking about the 2 malay violinists who I think their appearance and style were kinda awful and disgusting. You know lar, I was a daring person and dare to speak it out. Hence, I don't think the 2 guys liked me. Ho ho ho, busted you fella.But then, now I really dislike to talk fei hua with people and criticizing people that I don't even know them. I rather to keep quiet and let people do the talking. Sometimes, when ppl talking RUBBISH which I really behtahan them, I would just keep quiet with no comment given. If wanna talk bad about people, just point it out in front of them as a true friend but not backstabbing them from their back. At least now I change my attitude for that. But then, if you are a good friend of mine, I would just critize in front of you proudly where we know that we are just having fun and getting to know each other more. I would just say the truth. Gosh, I still phail in telling lies. Whenever I told a lie, people will notice in no time as this is not my ability for telling lie. Anyway, I hate liar.
FORM 4
This year was a gruesome year for me as I was appointed as a conductor and knew nothing about it. Well, if you asked me what was violin when I was in form 1, I couldn't answer you as I don't know. Everyone is learning from zero, aren't you? Hence, I tried my best to learn myself as my seniors did not really transfer all the knowledge to me. Anyhow, I did not give up as I can't let the whole band down. Luckily I have a few bunch of good friends backing up for me. They always supported me no matter how. Still remember, there was a guy who always sms me every Sat just to wish me luck. I felt touched and without his support, I might breakdown immediately. He had taught me a lot of things which a katak tempurung person knew nothing. Thanks anyway. Frankly, this year I poteng a lot. Ok, it was not me only, there were many of my friends did the same. Halo, we were not having only one club to take charge. There were lots more of activities to handle. I have tried to avoid for attending some of the agm such as lpgm. I still remember that I begged people not to vote me and left early for the agm. Gosh, busted again. This was not to avoid the responsibility but I just wanted to focus on a more specific task.FORM 5
Hey, did I tell you that I was an active runner for school? Lol, if you are not my classmates you would not know. I have joined and represented for the school in running since form 1. But then in the middle I was a bit slacking. I can't believe people will elect me as the president for dunno what colour club when I was form 3 busying preparing for concert. Damn. I still remember the sport day was coincident with my theory exam. I can't sacrifice both. Hence, I went to the sport day early in the morning just to gao dim and make sure everything was ok then rushed for the exam. Straight after the exam, I rushed back to the sport day and competed in the event. The venue was in my dad's college hence it was quite near with my exam venue. Thanks God for that.Back to when I was form 5. Well, form 5 before the concert, the days were hard to go through. But then once again, I have lots of great friends I met throughout the process. I can't believe I was damn skinny during that year as I care more of band than my health. I was the assistant captain for red team. I ran for 400M for the event. Before that, I conducted the band for a marching song and rushed to change my attire. Firstly, I jumped for the long jump. Oh gosh, I just tried the first attempt and got to go for my 400M match. It was a gruesome moment as I missed the long jump competition. If I completed the jump twice, I might get myself another medal. Haiz, regretted not to complete it before running for the next event. Wait, I have missed an important detail before my long jump. Well, after the jump suddenly one of my juniors passed me a ROTI and said that someone gave it to me while the person had to leave and couldn't watch me running. I was damn touched at that moment as I can't believe someone would be so kind to me. I felt touched and thanks for the bun. Anyhow, I don't think I finished it as my stomach was full of butterflies flying around fiercely.
"BANG", the gun strike the damn steel board, I started to run heartily. To my surprise, I couldn't see anyone beside me. Am I too fast? Have I faul? Am I the only one who was running? I couldn't careless by looking back but just running forward till to the finish line. I was SO happy once I knew that I got the first prize for the event. Well, I did not do any physical exercise before the event but I did it at last. That was the moment I felt proud of myself.
Then, after a few weeks, I got to represent the school for the freaking event. I was not prepared at all but I was ready just to do my best. When we were ready for the game, it was raining hence 4 of us have to wait anxiously with other tough competitors around. I started to feel scare as I saw their legs were damn LONG and looked so PRO. Us? We looked nothing but just a normal study person. Gosh, we almost got the 3rd prize but to no avail. We were the 4th. Anyhow, we did enjoy ourselves very much. Imagine a person who had so many things to do yet have to take care of sport thinggy. Not everyone could do it right? If you stand up and say you can do, I praise you. Bravo, you are great. I would like to meet this kind of person who have the same interests with me.
Wow, concert day was the biggest event that I have so far. Standing on the stage was really awesome as everyone was staring at you. If you are feeling not right or lead wrongly, you would be in a hot soup. Anyhow, I did my best. The biggest worried I have for the last day was there were many damn changes before the event started. I was worried that I might forget to give out signals. Anyhow in the end everything gone smoothly but the most disappointed moment was the finale song. I phail on that. Someone forgotten to finish he/her last bits. At first I thought I conducted wrongly, once I have finished up the song, I straight away went to the backstage and started to cry. Imagine a successful thing has been destroyed with a bad ending, what would you feel? Luckily, the audiences did not really notice it. At first, I kept blaming it was my fault, luckily Mun Wei and Gcl were there to comfort me. Gosh, it made my face so damn red when I was taking pics with others. That was the reason. Anyhow, I can't believe that I could make it till the end. I hope that I can still persuade on music in the future although it was definitely not my main core. Perhaps my minor part time thinggy? WHo knowS? Tell you what, my biggest dream for now was to learn 3 favorite instruments and played tom-tom in a marching band. Huh, sounds crazy and impossible? Well, just my hopes and It doesn't mean to make it true.
Going through ups and downs can really make an inexperience ppl to become more experience in life. Undeniably, everyone went through almost the same process like me, I hope that everyone would be fine always. Frankly, I did admit that I have become more quiet than ever. I didn't like that way as formal style was really not like me. I am still wondering around and finding my own soul. No worries, I would find it in no time and be myself in no time.
Erm.. It seem that I have crapped TOO much for now. I shall continue my life journey if I wanted to. Till now, gosh, tomorrow have to go for an interview for a job. Guan, you lead primary school students. Let me help you to guide them before they enroll in primary school ya. God bless us and everyone =)
1 comment:
謝謝
Post a Comment