see deeply, think deeply

This is the time when you really don't know how to solve all of the problems,
It's like playing tug the war where there are too many forces pushing you in different direction.

Sometimes, I just don't know how to deal with feelings.
Sometimes, I just don't know what to talk about.
Sometimes, I just don't feel like talking.
Sometimes, I just want to be alone and untouchable.
Sometimes, I just want to be with my family members.

It's not easy to deal with problems when all in a sudden,
you feel like there are ants attacking you in different places.
Yahoo account is one, and then skype is not functioning, no internet connection is the headache one, dealing with different kind of people are challenging, don't know how to react quickly make one feels dumb, staying in a kurungan is like hell.

My horoscope says it all. Now I am like a bird which its wing has broken. There is no space to fly again. There is no sound to voice.

hahaha. today went to see a concert. It was great to have music surrounded me once more. Saya tak patut cakap saya tau muzik & history muzik saya. Once I heard someone said I betrayed music years ago repeatedly in front of the public. It teared my heart apart. I am not giving up, just needing some time to build my courage and shine again :)

till here. argh! I hate to make decision at this point. God pls bless me.