Melancholic

Feeling a lil tense right now. Was trying to sleep after the hectic week has come to an end but to no avail. Having too much of thoughts at once. First of all, losing confidence is a disaster for me. I can’t speak well, express well, do well either. It has become a major stopping for me to proceed my tasks. Confidence, c’mon, I need to rebuild you and be strong again!

Secondly, after helping out for the “aisha” today. My mind can’t stop flashing the moment of sadness that I might can’t feel for real by the flooded victims. I was in charged in socializing with the families in 2 tables. In my group, here come a big family of 6 with 4 small kids. They were sooooo sweet especially Randa who was just 2 years old just couldn’t stop smiling to me whenever I looked at her. I was deeply touched with how this family moving on since the disaster. They couldn’t go back to their home anymore as the house is sinking due to the soft wash-away soil during the flood. Other than that, they have to squeeze themselves living in someone’s house. After all, it was not convenient for them to stay at people house for a long time. Besides, the lovely mum was sick and was in waiting list for a surgery. One of their children was diagnosed with a kind of brain sickness. It made the children hyper always and couldn’t sit still. I could still recall the unique smell they have.

The more we talked about their condition, the parents were started to weep. I was dumbfounded. I was touched. I was helpless. The only thing I could do was to still calm. I missed the moment when the lil girl hugged me all in a sudden. She was tiny and shy. Her cute lil smile brighten my day. I miss her : (

There was another old couple kept thanking us profusely as they were touched by our kind hearts. While he was talking with me, I could sense that he was in melancholic. Instantly, his eyes have gone wet. I pat his shoulder, and smile, telling him everything would be fine in the end. Have faith even though the process of recovering might be slow.

I don’t know what else to say. Disasters could happen everywhere even though in a wealthy country. People could go from rich to poverty. It’s unpredictable. Yet, we still can save money bits by bits everyday. By accumulating it, who knows it might come to handy in the future.

Feelin refresh now. Hopefully I could meet them again during the performance day. signingoff~