Suddenly my mind stucks with alot of confusion. My heart is aching. I don't know why. I don't know whether I am studying or thinking now. Arghhh!!! Feel like my heart gonna explode with lots of cilly sauce. Frankly, I thought I am ok already. However, sometimes feel like wanna punch myself.
My mind keep floating with lots of weird and confusing thoughts. It's hard for me to clear it off in a second.
First of all, am I want to be an accountant in the future?
I am doubt about it. But choice has been made, so just follow the flow. I totally forgotten to put phsycology as my priority when first applied for the scholarship.
Since I was in secondary school, I always wanted and interested to learn about ppl's lifestyle and cultural. I like to watch discovery channel about the Lost World and amazing, mysterious pyramid, etc. I always wanted to go to those places to dig out the secrets. Am I qualified for doing that? I don't feel that I like accountancy this field although the market for accountants would be great in the future. I more fond to do research about human act, behaviour, and natural diversity. Hence, anthropology has come into my mind dictionary since then. Anthropolgy is the social science that studies the origins and social relationships of human beings. I really hope to fly to those places and keep my soul in peace.
In addition, I have determined to contribute to the society as I am still alive. I want to be like Joshua who doing part time on charity and researchs. Words are easier said than done. Sometimes I feel dry empty. However, I prefer to be single as now is not the suitable time for me to fall in love. Perhaps 20 years later? or I decided to become a nun? Who knows?
After expressing myself, feel that my confusion is still lingering there.
Be a strong girl, Peh Hwa. Yes, I sure can do it!!! Nothing is impossible unless you defeat yourself and mindset yourself. Then you are the loser. Life is not to compare and compete. Compete with yourself to be better and live to the fullest, girl XD
I hope everyone would support me to do what I like as I need the support from family and friends the most. Gambateh!!!
8 comments:
what is the feeling of "your heart gonna explde with chili sauce" ???? >.<
btw, support u!!!!hehe.. follow ur heart desire~~
Absurb words la.
Try to imagine, if your heart really explode like the volcano errupts, wouldn't it be red in colour? XD
Be happy and stay focus on what you have and what important thing you support to do. Be focus in our lives everyday as we have only this particular day once in a life time. Make good use of it in a fruitful way and hardwork always pay off in sense of satisfaction and achievement. Never give up. Alot more is in store for you. Your future depends on your effort now. Always be strong, do some planing and focus on your exams. Dont dream. Reality is here. Your dad & mom, brother and sister will support you.
Thanks alot XD
Of course I will be strong like a superwoman. LOL
Muaks, love you all : )
MM...i am in social science field now....lol
Is it? Thought you are future engineer XD
no la...i am kinda art person..dun like to follow the track formulated by the ancients
LOL... No need to follow. Shd create new tracks for your future generations to follow. wakaka
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