Blind

Huh? At last I reached here safetly.
First of all, would like to say sorry to my parents for making them worry.

After the theory exam, suddenly my mind became very empty. All the music knowledge has returned to my teacher. Now what should I do next? At home, I would keep thinking nonsense or something that bother me for a long time would suddenly reappear. I hate that kind of situation. It would make me suddenly cry out loud. I really can't stand it.

Hence, yesterday night I had decided to come back to my condo to mind my own business, make my mind busy with stuff. Is it very silly to go back during holiday where you should spend the time with family? I feel sorry to my parents. I really can't cope with the stess. It is nothing to do about family or friends stuffs. It is my own personal conflict that I need to solve myself. How to solve, I don't know. I just want to be alone. Pls leave me alone. Unless you are my true friend, pls help me from jumping deep into the well.

Huh?? This afternoon dad fetched me to seremban train station. I kept dozing off in the train. When I reached KL Central, I was blur till walked into KL Centre. Quickly, I walked out again. Malaysians always not punctual which I just can sigh for that. I was holding 2 bags, a laptop plus file and water bottle in my hands altogether more than 4kg and the train has not arrived on time. Sigh!!
Along the way, I felt dizzy and head was very heavy.

Besides, I had made a terrible decision which was walk from Setia Jaya station to Ridzuan with all my heavy stuffs. Although the route was not long, the burden on my shoulder and hands made it as I have walked for ages to reach Ridzuan. However, I managed to reach there although almost lost in nowhere. Hence, my hands and whole body sore. I deserve it.

Hope that I can distress here. Do what I want. Be alone and find peace. If you really willing to help me or care for me, pls don't worry about me but try to find me. I really need a thrustworthy listener.

God bless me.