confused =?

Recently I am kinda busy with my exam and assignments. Anyhow, I still left with a few tasks. Hopefully everything will run smoothly and after that it’s the time to enjoy myself to the fullest once more ^^ However, I haven’t really planned anything. lolz.

Recently, I like to think alot. Erm… I should say I do always think about life, love, future, friendships so on and so forth. But this time round, I am kinda confused with myself. I kinda afraid on my own choices. There are some obstacles that I have to go through. Everyone has to make their choice, so do I. Sometimes, I keep on wondering whether the course that I am studying is for the sake of career or interest? Well, obviously these two kind of concepts are totally different. Last time I choose music because it is my interest but not really on career side. This time, I have chosen Commerce because of my future career. How about my minor? Am I going to take double major on commerce or choose some elective courses which I am interested on? I have no idea. My dad wants me to go on with double major. But, I am not really keen on finance. Although I think I can do it, but my heart is not going towards it. Let’s say, if I wanna pursue professional course such as CPA or ACCA, one major is enough. But of course, if you study more, you know more, you might gain more. Right?

Recently or perhaps during these 2 years, I have discovered my own hidden interest. Usually I am a typical lazy girl, but when come to photography, graphic and illustrator designs, I am really keen on learning and wanting to know more. When looking at some awesome pictures or photoshoped pictures, I would feel very happy and hope that I myself can do that kind of wonderful artworks as well. Whenever I am editing pictures and miraculously discovered some nice or cool imagining conceptual, I would feel really great and satisfied. On the other hand, whenever I am studying law or acct for the sake of exam, I would just keep on reading the long winded texts which I could never really absorb it well. I am a kinda practical girl which really like some hand on work rather than knowing everything about theories.

Usually, people starting to worry their own path when they are going to enroll in tertiary studies. But, I am confused at the middle of the path. What should I do now? I always dream to be a freelance photographer and miniature designer at my own leisure. Sometimes, I am kinda envy my friend, Crazyting for having such a wonderful time with her own art world. Yea, she did always complain about not having time, always sleep late, no inspiration, no motivation, bla bla bla, but, she really had a lot of fun because she is doing what she like. Motivation and enthusiasm will automatically appear when one really keen on something.

Oops, perhaps I have crap too much. Just ignore my crazy post. Enjoy some pics bah. Seriously, I really hope to have PS software which I have longing for quite some time. Usually I edit pics just using the normal features or do not edit at all. I wish to have a drawing pad as well ^^ Erm.. Dream too much already. I have no $$ now. Got to save for my daily life and vacation. Just let it be bah =)

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I always like the feelings of togetherness. We share food together, we discuss things together, we joke together, we critic each other happily, we laugh together, etc… awww, she is too sweet ^^

Argh.. My coughing is way too annoying now. It is loud and I am suffering on it. Wondering how am I going to sing for tomorrow midnight’s performance. Just now I was practicing in the shower, guess what, once I hit the high note, what I heard was some scratching and irritating sound. Yea, I can sing like a toad. Should I be proud of that?

Should I pretend to sing by opening my ugly mouth but indeed, there is no sound at all? Argh… I really looking forward on it at first, but now, I have no feelings at all. Luckily it is not my grand performance, if not I would really feel sad. Ish, who ask me to eat so much of chocolates =(

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This pic was taken when I was at the Tzu Ching Centre practicing singing Australia Patriotic songs. So to speak, I am interested in video production and filming as well. However, I don’t have the basic. Hope to learn it someday. *crossed my fingers tightly*

Wohoo, if I want to write everything out, it would be a superb long post. Haha.. Some personal thinggy better to keep it to myself. Till here ^^ Looking forward to a new tomorrow =)

p/s: Perhaps my mind is subconscious now, that’s why I can type so much of real thoughts. Ish, better sleep now. cioz.

With love, Peh