Recently don't know why suddenly will feel sad, suddenly will feel lonely and bored. I am quite disappointed for my performance. I did badly that day. I have lost concentration when playing the songs, so damn embarassing. But everyting is over now, relief. However, my days will be more bored. Everyday just staying at home. Wanna do homework, but just cannot sit still. Before my final exam, I hope to have wonderful holiday this year. But to my dismay, everyting become disaster. All my dreams have gone. The process is painful and unbearable.
I am the one who quite silly always organise activities to occupy my day and meet friends. But it seem that almost everyone like to put aeroplane with me. Some of them promise will come but the very last minute say cant. If ppl inform me never mind, but I ask them last minute they only tell me cannot come. What would you feel if you are in my position? Will you feel happy enough and glad? It am really diappointed and it is the most failure event I had organised.
Lately, I really learn alot of internal mental stuffs. I have learnt to control my thought and emotion. What I dislike is the feeling of being put aeroplane by ppl. May be it is my fault to organise those events. I just want to gather all of you, but the result is really disappointing. Nvm, there might be no other time. Just let it be. I am damn fine :p
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